Yesterday, was Easter Sunday. I love Easter. I love to think about why we celebrate Easter. But this year was different. I had a horrible morning - kids woke up arguing and that tipped the barrel on the stress that had been building up. I argued with Josh, yelled at the kids, cried repeatedly, and to top it all off - I was having a lot of pain in my hips when walking, standing, sitting - pretty much anything. It was NOT how I wanted to start such a wonderful holiday celebration.
We went to church and I couldn't talk to anyone without starting to cry, so I avoided eye contact as much as possible. I wanted to be there, but the pain - physical and emotional was just overwhelming.
The sermon was great, but it was a song that we sung at the end that really hit me hard. Some of the lyrics are (this is not all of the song, and I did skip some):
"... In the loneliest places, when I can't remember what grace is,
Tell me, once again, who I am to You, who I am to You.
Tell me, lest I forget, who I am to You, I belong to You....
If I'm Your beloved, help me believe it..."
I really needed to be reminded that I belong to Christ. He died because He loves me and with His blood He bought me back, out of the bondage of sin, and took me as His own. He calls me His beloved.
Every person I know will let me down at some point. There is not a single person on this earth that I can fully trust not to ever let me down.
BUT, God will never let me down. He always acts in my best interest. He will always love me no matter what, and even better, He will not allow me to stay in those places when I am at my lowest. I am His and He loves me. In His love, He will work in my life to make me the person He has called me to be.
I needed to be reminded of this, so I could remember what I had been so excited to celebrate in the first place, but had let other things distract me from that celebration. My God gave His life for me, because of His love for me, but that's not all, He is alive! He is the One True Living God and He calls me His beloved.
Oh thank you Lord for Your everlasting love!