Friday, May 24, 2013

This Is the Day That the Lord Has Made

This is the day (this is the day)
That the Lord has made (that the Lord has made)
We will rejoice (we will rejoice)
And be glad in it (and be glad in it)
This is the day that the Lord has made
We will rejoice and be glad in it
This is the day (this is the day)
That the Lord has made

This is the song that I woke my children up to yesterday morning. Hoping to begin our day on a positive note with maybe a little less yelling (mainly from me). Hoping for more joyful obedience (one can hope right?).

I began this day not knowing that as I awoke singing this song on my lips, later I would need to choose if I was going to sing this song in my heart. 

Because this is the day we found out that we have lost the child I am carrying. 

This is the day we found out that our little baby's heart had stopped beating and he or she will be born without life.

My heart mourns for this little life that was lost. Tears come when I least expect them. The air around me is heavy with sadness. 

But even though my heart grieves for my child, there is still joy. 

I rejoice this day knowing that God is sovereign. 
I rejoice in knowing that His plan is better than mine, no matter what it is.
I rejoice is knowing that my child is now with Him in heaven.
I rejoice in the blessings He still allows me to have on this earth. 
I rejoice in the fact that He is the God of peace, the God of love, the God of joy.
I rejoice in knowing that He is my Comforter, my Keeper, my Fortress.
I rejoice in knowing that this IS the day that HE has made.

There are still tears. There is still sadness. My heart still grieves. 

But through it all I cling to His promise:
Zeph 8:10b - "Do not be grieved, for the joy of the Lord is your strength." 

Today I chose to again wake my children up with that song (we told them last night what is happening). And today a new song of truth and promise rings in my heart:


Liz said...

Praying for you friend!! Your post is beautiful, thank you for sharing!

heidi said...

Wow Barbie you are so amazing to me and I know its his love radiating through you! I can't even tell you what a beautiful, selfless person you are. With all you were going through the other day you cared about me and what I was going through. I have never experienced someone being so selfless in my life. You are my hero and I love you girl even though we don't know each other that well I can honestly say I love you and I can't even begin to tell you how blessed you are and will be because of tour acts of love. Your baby is with Jesus and what better place to be than with our Father!!!!! God answered all of your prayers for my situation and none of you gave up when we did. This is amazing love and I feel closer to God than I ever have in my life!!! Please let me know if you need anything. I owe you all everything. Xoxoxoxoxo

Babetta said...

Unfortunately I can feel your pain. I still think of the little one we lost almost 4 years ago. The pain lessens, and our God is so faithful to heal and restore more than we have lost. We will be praying for you and your precious family. Please let me know if you need to talk about it any time.